BSAD… I’m Pretty Sure It’s Real

The last comment my friend Jefferson gave to me was, “Emmy, don’t slack.” I thought, “yeah, no problem Jefferson, there’s tons to write about during the off season.” So, what was the first thing I did after I read that? If you’re thinking, “you went and wrote a blog,” you would be wrong. No, I slacked. And slacked. And slacked a little bit more. So, while my dear readers were busy keeping up with me, I was not busy keeping up with them. My sincerest apologies, oh dear readers. I appreciate the love you’ve shown me by stopping by here still and making me number eight on the latest leaders board (holla!).

So, while I’m here, let us talk about the atrocity known as the offseason.
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Some time ago, I was messaging on my handy dandy… Blackberry!! (In case you didn’t get the reference, that was from Blue’s Clues… and I had to talk about my newest little gadget that has also become my newest obsession.) Anyway, I was messaging with a friend of mine who lives down in Blues Clues.jpgVenezuela and has the pleasure of covering winter ball for the Caribes. From what I’ve been learning about winter ball, it’s completely amazing, but the Caribes… they’re like the equivalent of the Washington Nationals.

So, we were messaging about this one game, and it was completely crazy: extra innings, bench clearing brawls, a manager ejection, and a high scoring game (Okay, I know what you’re thinking, “Emily, that’s nothing like the Nationals, a high scoring game? Maybe only for the opposing team, you liar” to which I would say, “hey, even the Nationals get their day… someday…” (but that’s beside the point)). Just reading theCaribes.jpg messages, I couldn’t help but get excited waiting for the next one. He kept me updated on the count, who was on base, who was up to bat. I was sitting there, glued to this little screen on my phone thinking, “WHAT’S HAPPENING?!?!” It didn’t matter that I didn’t know any of the players, that I didn’t know anything about the teams; no, it was wondering what pitch, where it’s located, did he swing? I was on the edge of my seat just waiting to read what would happen.

I spent Thanksgiving with my friend and her parents who live down in Colorado Springs. The Broncos game against the Giants wasn’t broadcast (for some ridiculous reason) so we had to listen to the game on the radio. Listening to any game on the radio is very different from watching a game in any sport (well, I guess I really only listen to baseball on the radio, that football thing was only once). When you listen to one on the radio, you hear something like, “here’s the pitch…” With a fastball, it takes approximately 0.4 seconds to travel those 60 feet six inches to get to the plate. But waiting to hear what will happen after the, “here’s the pitch…” waiting that 0.4 seconds is like agony. When listening to the football game, waiting to hear if Kyle Orton’s throw was completed or waiting to hear if Eli Manning completed… anything, playing that waiting game makes you so… anxious… I think that’s the word I’m looking for.

So waiting for that message, waiting for that pitch count, “3-0… 3-1… 3-2… swing and a miss.” Waiting for that was like listening to the radio… only harder.

To get to the point, I didn’t realize how detrimental the off season is to my health until I found myself huddled around this tiny screen waiting for a message about a pitch, to a player I’d never heard of, on a team I didn’t know anything about, in a country I’ve never been to, on a different continent.

So, while we’re on the subject of my health, let’s talk about something that I’m about 99% sure I have right now. Have you ever heard of seasonal affective disorder? It’s basically how people react to the amount of sunlight in their environment. The typical pattern is that people have a tendency to become depressed during the fall and winter seasons (when there’s less light) and then kind of normalize in the spring and summer.

I’m all for getting sunlight, I mean, Colorado is a state that does have all four seasons. But… is it possible to have seasonal affective disorder for baseball? I mean… granted, it does coincide with the timing of… regular.. seasonal affective disorder (I don’t know if you’d call it “regular” since I don’t really think “baseball seasonal affective disorder” would be found in the DSM).

However, I think BSAD could be a legitimate medical condition, and I think I have it. So, how does it compare to the regular SAD? Like I said, SAD is about the amount of light that you’re getting in your environment; therefore, BSAD would be like the amount of baseball you get inSunlight.jpgyour environment.

Let’s think about it this way, in Colorado, at least lately, we’ve been having like… sub zero type temperatures. Now, since it’s Colorado, it’s possible that in a weeks time it’ll be sunny and somewhere in the 60s. So right now, it’s always overcast, dark, and in general, kind of gloomy. Then there are those sunny days where things are a little bit brighter, nicer, it’s a day where you want to be outside.

Same thing with baseball. Right now, I don’t have any, it’s gloomy, dark, and in general, a bit depressing. But there areMLB Network logo.jpglittle things that can only keep you satisfied for so long, like MLB Network or messaging with my friend covering winter ball. I mean… it’s not having baseball, but it’s as close as you can get. It’s like that one sunny day out of the week of crappy ones.

So during the off season months, I lust after that spring training date or that opening day date. I mean, when we’re talking hot stove, it can get a little repetitive. So I roam through the days in this… zombie-esque manner, waiting for that warm, sunny spring day in April. Granted, “zombie-esque manner” is probably not a politically correct way to describe someone with BSAD, or SAD for that matter, but I trust you’ll get over it.

Being on Twitter, being surrounded by baseball fans, and being someone who received their BA in psychology, I feel qualified to diagnose most of us with BSAD. We’re all… well… a little depressed right now just waiting, counting down those days until spring training arrives, and the sun comes out and the snow melts away (at least for Colorado). The days where the sun shines perfectly on that baseball diamond, where a beer and nachos (or for most baseball goers, a hot dog) is the only food you need that day to be content, where the sound of a ball hitting the sweet spot on a bat is just the best sound in the world. Yes, we lust after those days, and like anyone with SAD, we have to wait. Wait for the cold, harsh winter to be over, wait for the sun to show its face again, and wait for the day where we won’t have
to say, “Man… I miss baseball,” because baseball would already be here.

Yes, dear friends, until that time comes, we must be the artificial light in each others lives while we wait for that day in spring. We will suffer through our BSAD together while we wait for that day that it seems we can only dream about.  



  1. cargoandatkinsfan

    Great entry! I think it hit the nail on the head for what a lot of us are feeling right now. BSAD is a valid and legit condition and can make regular SAD that much more intense. It just shows how MLB is such a big part of our lives. We get these little tastes of having baseball back as you said, but it’s up to us baseball fans to help eachother through the offseason and the cold, so that we can together look forward to that first day of having our game back!

  2. Jonah

    Even though the Blue Jays didn’t do too well this past year, I still miss the routine of going to the Rogers Centre to watch the game. You’ve hit the nail right on the head about us fans who suffer with BSAD. At least America gets the MLB Network; here I get sporadic updates from all-sports channels that flood their highlights with hockey (which I don’t mind, but it ain’t baseball). Yep, we’re all one big support group here, and I’d like to thank all for listening.

    I’m already jonesing for Spring Training – and I intend to go to both the Grapefruit and Cactus Leagues, as my vacation will take place in March.


  3. redstatebluestate

    I got your back and I know you have mine so together we’ll get through the offseason. I’m tellin’ ya, watch the MLB Network. That and CNN are all that’s on my television during the work week. In just this last week I watched Nolan Ryan’s 7th no hitter, Tom Seaver’s 300th win and an hour and a half Bob Costas interview with Dennis Eckersley, Goose Gossage, Bruce Sutter and Rollie Fingers. Unbelievable television right there. And I can allow this excessive television watching during the offseason because DURING THE SEASON I’m watching 3-5 hours of baseball a night ANYWAY, so it all evens out. And another thing, Emmy, the thing I love about this blog is when I’m writing a comment I see your Tag Cloud on the right and the BIGGEST entry is “GARRET ATKINS”. That shows love. Most people (me included) had fun ripping him to shreds during his epic of epic EPIC fail of a season, but you treated him like a human. That’s something to write about.

  4. AJRoxMyWhiteSox

    Several things, so I shall number them. 1) I still love that you call him Jefferson. Because I giggle whenever I leave my house, as the street to get out of my neighborhood is Jefferson Ln. 2) YAY BLUE’S CLUES! 3) At least you’re not a lying gadget, even if the Nationals don’t have high scoring games. Yay tweet reference! 4) Colorado + Thanksgiving Broncos game = not on TV in Colorado? What is that nonsense?! 5) I believe in the concept of BSAD because I am INCREDIBLY sad during the offseason. Luckily there are still blogs to read and awesomely awesome people to talk baseball with on Twitter. Soon, baseball will be back with spring, and BSAD and SAD will be gone.

  5. raysrenegade

    Winter Baseball.
    I have a friend who is currently playing Winter Ball in Puerto Rico, and this is the second year in a row the Rays have sent him out to get some extra work before Spring Training.
    I can’t get those games on the computer ( bummer), but have checked them every day to see how his team is doing.
    It sucks that AFL is over and we have to just settle for old MLB broadcasts right now until the “real thing” starts in February.
    I love Colorado. I remember going for a recruiting visit and going from Denver where it was snowing, to Colorado Springs and a place called Garden of the Gods and dirt biking in the same day. From jacket and ski to gloves and motocross wear in less than 12 hours was a wild adventure.
    Got to get out there and do it all again some day.

    Rays Renegade

  6. redstatebluestate

    Goddamn it, it’s January 13th already and you have yet to write in 2010, Emmy. Get on it! With love of course 🙂

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